in many ways, 2009 was pretty much the worst year of my life. the few bright points were blighted by horrible dark ones. all i can do is focus on the future, try to fix some wrongs, and try to dig myself out of this shitty hole i'm sorta stuck in. also, i would like to regain a sense of time in my life; try to be more consious of it's passing, rather than just being blindsided by the ever changing seasons. yup, goodbye asshole past, hello lovely future!